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I dont think I like this being made fun of thing. after a while it just feels like your one worthless being not particularily good at anything and it really sucks. he says he's sorry and i accept that its just I wonder if thats how he truly feels on the inside about me? am i really some city girl who cant do shit? or is it like he says ...which is something i cant recall at the moment. all i can really recall is "noo its not like that i was just making fun of you..."|uhh thanks that makes me feel so worhty of your time. maybe i should just go home but its really snowy and icky outside.

i really dont know where to draw the line in concerns to this. like how far is too far? when do i tell him to stop and when do i yell stop your making me feel terrible about myself?? and i know you may be reading this and thinking "oh no thats not good sheena hes bad for you" but its not like that. our relationship has always been light and fluffy and full of teasing it just gets out of hand sometimes like tonight.

\i just wish that i didnt feel so shitty because even though he appologizes profusely, i still feel like everything he has said is true and when im out of college i wont amount to anything because of it.