aww yeee

january 3rd i weighed 154
february 24th i weigh 134

SWEET!

its a bird its a plane..no..its mono..FUCK!

so i have mono we thought it was strep throat but apearantly not

Sex Bomb

Soo yesterday night i had the amazing plan of giving Gavin his V day gift and then giving him his acid queen strip tease and also watching Zoolander. at 10:30. I gave him this cute little text: A bomb has exploded in my room come by at 10:30 to clean up my ashes make sure you shower so you're flame retardant" I spent all day cleaning and does he show up....NO! he was upstairs playing Mafia and I was practically stood up for an hour! he felt genuinely bad so we watched Zoolander. then I gave him the sex bomb and he absolutely LOVED IT. at first he was unnerved that I got him a gift at all but I was like "it didnt cost more than ten bucks and its just something fun" and he just couldnt help but LOVE the bomb. it was great he loved everything about it and he couldnt feel like he could top it lol. and then i gave him the strip tease to acid queen which he was totally amazed by especially since I was decked out in suspenders and striped jeans with the fedora yay! we didnt have sex last night but it was a good night since weve been in a relationship hes soo much more gentle its so cute. my first valentines day not alone..yay!

FEBRUARY 11th

So I decided I wouldnt see Gavin today because im trying to give us space and I altogether felt like i needed space from everything. so I was hanging out with katelin and she gave me shit as per usual and then we went to dinner with Gavin and he acted normal and then i went back to katelins room and he visited and was still normal but it was strange because he watched me the entire time he closed the door when he left. i returned to my room and saw that he called. I called back and he was just like "hey" so i thought nothing of it but then i got two text messeges from him and he was wondering where i was and wanted me to stop by his room. I was fairly confused and texted back wondering if he still wanted me to stop by and he said hed be by in half an hour. so he comes to my room and hes like, "I...want to be in a relationship with you. the idea of you with another guy drives me insane and I dont exactly think its fair that im allowed to hook up with girls while dating you." Soooo As of Feburary 11th at like 11pm I AM IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH GAVIN CLARKSON FROM THE YUKON!

all the things he said

so last night I had sex with gavin preceeding that this is what he said...ill continue with this blog tomorrow

- "I really really like you"
- "I am so sorry, I dont tell you enough that you're gorgeous"
-"babe you have the body of a goddess"
-"You're so understanding"

mmmmm boys

So yesterday Gavin and Dylan and I went to see the Black Rider this play that Gavin saw in whitehorse and really liked it was really good and reminded me alot of doctor Caligari it was nice. and today Gavin came shopping with me to buy a few things and we didnt do ANY PDA except in starbucks he grabbed me around the wait which was cute ^^ and tonight we just hugged quickly kissed and went our seperate ways, it was nice. we went out to dinner as well and he paid for it to, and I got him a bag of candy that were sharing lol today was really great! he blocked me from leaving his room and gave me a nice huge hug things are going well. I just wish that we were exclusive and in an actual relationship..who knows maybe he'll realise HEY I DONT WANT ANYONE ELSE! and things will be great but i dont see that happening for a while. I dont like that valentines day is growing so close it makes me sad and excited at the same time. I still have to stop by and get him some candy or something cute at the dollar store lol. umm things are just nice their not overly exciting were taking our time with things which is great and I just feel content. from what he says his ex girlfriend was an EXTREME control freak who completely controlled his life and made it so he doesnt like relationships which is unfortunate but im happy that I make him happy because I apearantly do. it was nice to go out today and not touch eachother a hundred percent of the time its weird because i always want to but i find its better that we dont when i reflect back on things. sure i would like the consistent hey i like yous but hes not that person hes the im strong and soft when the lights are off and its weird. hes so many things and he isnt and i just think hes great! he sent me a tet message today after we were discussing how cody backed out on katelin and how i can always tell when guys want out. he looks at me and says "I think you should check your phone now for a text message because im afraid if you read it later it will be out of context and youll be very upset and it said "i want out i want out i want out" which I suppose means hes happy with me. which I like. im very happy right now. well heres to spending another day with him tomorrow THREE DAYS IN A ROW! augh im going to have to avoid him like the plague for the next week so I can study Geography!

meurrh

ahhhh two days ago....weeee...made out......darn him!