Thursday, May 29, 2008
Monday, May 26, 2008
happy Birthday Baby
So today is Gavins birthday.
we video called eachother today so i could watch him open his presents. he absolutely loved the Batman DVD boxed set. he said he couldnt find it brand new anywhere and was so happy and he would keep the box. he loved the anklet I made him he said that the black and white were good strong colours and that the blue would remind him of me. he put it onand showed me. he adored the harmonica and couldnt believe I got it engraved and eh was so happy with everything I got him. oh yeah, and the DVD I made him....yeah he loved that even more. it was so cool watching him open everything because i remember wrapping it up and sending it to him. I'm so happy he loves the presents. he said that these are the best gifts hes ever gotten for his birthday and he totally intends to top my gift. if he can. lol I wont see him for another 52 days. he really liked the DVD i sent him he said it was so fucking hot that he was jaw dropped. this was all out an amazing birthday for him and Im glad I could make it special even though I wasnt there.
we video called eachother today so i could watch him open his presents. he absolutely loved the Batman DVD boxed set. he said he couldnt find it brand new anywhere and was so happy and he would keep the box. he loved the anklet I made him he said that the black and white were good strong colours and that the blue would remind him of me. he put it onand showed me. he adored the harmonica and couldnt believe I got it engraved and eh was so happy with everything I got him. oh yeah, and the DVD I made him....yeah he loved that even more. it was so cool watching him open everything because i remember wrapping it up and sending it to him. I'm so happy he loves the presents. he said that these are the best gifts hes ever gotten for his birthday and he totally intends to top my gift. if he can. lol I wont see him for another 52 days. he really liked the DVD i sent him he said it was so fucking hot that he was jaw dropped. this was all out an amazing birthday for him and Im glad I could make it special even though I wasnt there.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
he said she said
he said: Your insecure about this relationship and it bothers me (well something along those lines)
she said:okay I thought about what you said when I asked you what bugged you about me and you said my constant insecurity about our relationship. at the time I denied it because to me its absurd I have no doubts about us.
but when I sat down and thought about it I realized you were right. I'm insecure because I'm afraid. afraid that the more you get to know me, the real me, that you would no longer want to be with me.
I keep striving to be your perfect girlfriend often ignoring what I want to make sure that your happy to the point that I'm terrified that if I'm not that person you want me to be that you wouldn't want me anymore.
which explains why I'm constantly apologizing and fearful to impede you in any way.
I can't wake up tomorrow and suddenly say that I'm going to be secure about everything. but I can tell you that I'm going to stop apologizing every 20 minutes and try to be myself to you. I'm going to trust that you love me and allow myself to be truly vulnerable to you the way you have been with me.
he said: Thats really good to hear. I know up to this point this has been a realtionship where I've been taking everything and giving little back, and I think at this point it would be fair for you to at least tell me what you would like. I'm glad to know that you're going to be more revealing about your true self to me. It's a scary thing, I know but you'll just have to trust me and yourself. Thanks.
she thinks: God I love this guy
she said:okay I thought about what you said when I asked you what bugged you about me and you said my constant insecurity about our relationship. at the time I denied it because to me its absurd I have no doubts about us.
but when I sat down and thought about it I realized you were right. I'm insecure because I'm afraid. afraid that the more you get to know me, the real me, that you would no longer want to be with me.
I keep striving to be your perfect girlfriend often ignoring what I want to make sure that your happy to the point that I'm terrified that if I'm not that person you want me to be that you wouldn't want me anymore.
which explains why I'm constantly apologizing and fearful to impede you in any way.
I can't wake up tomorrow and suddenly say that I'm going to be secure about everything. but I can tell you that I'm going to stop apologizing every 20 minutes and try to be myself to you. I'm going to trust that you love me and allow myself to be truly vulnerable to you the way you have been with me.
he said: Thats really good to hear. I know up to this point this has been a realtionship where I've been taking everything and giving little back, and I think at this point it would be fair for you to at least tell me what you would like. I'm glad to know that you're going to be more revealing about your true self to me. It's a scary thing, I know but you'll just have to trust me and yourself. Thanks.
she thinks: God I love this guy
Monday, May 19, 2008
this is the only thing that theres much to little of
i got my sexy pics :p
GAVIN QUOTES
"ur beautiful"
"you look fantastic"
"you could pass off as a model and you wouldnt imagine the high fives i get when i say im dating a black singer i dont even need to show a pic, its just an automatic win especially in the yukon"
"well i feel kinda like an ass when i just go "HEY! LOOK! LOOK AT HER! SHE'S MORE ATTRACTIVE THAN YOU OR ANYONE YOU'VE BEEN WITH! LOOKS AT IT! i feel like im saying that to someone"
"white guy with black chick is a win though especially a black singer thats an epic win it implies the whole strung out on a piano image"
"thats another of my favs (rebreakin acoustic) I listen to it in my car alot when its just me drivin to work or somethin"
(on what he would do when he sees me "drive to a secluded spot and show you how much i missed you through interpretive dance."
"you have brilliant white teeth that are perfect"
on giving and taking in our relationship "hehe well you can take too"
"i will treat you nice next semester just as long as noone sees"
"you have delicate ears that are just the right size, ands you have curves that sometimes make me walk slower than you so i can watch you sway."
"night babe night beauty love you"
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love sweet love thats the only thing that theres far to little of....
GAVIN QUOTES
"ur beautiful"
"you look fantastic"
"you could pass off as a model and you wouldnt imagine the high fives i get when i say im dating a black singer i dont even need to show a pic, its just an automatic win especially in the yukon"
"well i feel kinda like an ass when i just go "HEY! LOOK! LOOK AT HER! SHE'S MORE ATTRACTIVE THAN YOU OR ANYONE YOU'VE BEEN WITH! LOOKS AT IT! i feel like im saying that to someone"
"white guy with black chick is a win though especially a black singer thats an epic win it implies the whole strung out on a piano image"
"thats another of my favs (rebreakin acoustic) I listen to it in my car alot when its just me drivin to work or somethin"
(on what he would do when he sees me "drive to a secluded spot and show you how much i missed you through interpretive dance."
"you have brilliant white teeth that are perfect"
on giving and taking in our relationship "hehe well you can take too"
"i will treat you nice next semester just as long as noone sees"
"you have delicate ears that are just the right size, ands you have curves that sometimes make me walk slower than you so i can watch you sway."
"night babe night beauty love you"
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love sweet love thats the only thing that theres far to little of....
Sunday, May 4, 2008
city girl
so I sent Gavin all of my blog entries about us. he's excited. and Im feeling so nervous about all of this and worried like Im doing wayy to much but he doesnt mind in the least bit. i think he really likes being doted on. we started webcaming on skype but then his power went out.... so were trying again lol. im only able to stay from thursday to tuesday at his place.....on july 17th which makes me tripple sad because im only seeing him for a bit not to mention its two and a half weeks later... seeing him on webcam today made things feel so much more solid. there were actually moments that I instinctively reached out to hug him then remembered i couldnt. it hasnt even been a month and Im already having a difficult time with this. im a giddy loser of a school girl who is obsessed with her boyfriend...yeah.... his parents think im a nice "city girl" ....yeah...it feels so demeaning... makes me feel naive....oi!
when shit hits the fan...and the wall...and the ceiling...and the floor...
sooo after hanging out with Kayla I went to wired monk to see shiv and shayne. we later grabbed melissa and went to shaynes house to meet chris. me and siobhan tried to set chris and melissa up... meanwhile melissa and shayne were playing pool and I was sitting around watching while shiv played chris on air hockey. shiv blocked chris' shot and the puck flew past chris into shaynes toilet. chris tried to grab it and pushed the puck further back. sadly enough shaynes toilete was connected to a septic tank and while shayne shiv and chris tried to get the puck out water and shaynes shit started flying around the bathroom. Shayne and Chris settled on leaving it be...but as every tap went off the shit flew more and more. when shaynes parents came home Chris decided to tell shaynes dad. and well... shaynes dad thought it was funny as chris so delicately described how shit was "on the floor...on the walls...on the shower curtains...on the ceiling... on the toilette....on his hands....in shaynes hair....etc." Shaynes mom however went ballistic.... yeya
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