anxiety

im so excited

im so anxious

counting down hours

counting down seconds.

no one else cares

but thats okay

because I do.

T- 13.5 hours

S

I miss youuu but not...but do....but kinda not...but REALLY do...

So I suppose I should say something of interest. Well, the boy returns in mere hours and I am extremely excited only heres the thing, im kinda liking the being alone thing I feel like im more independent again and I like it. like I can watch whatever the hell I want and not have to think about what he wants. I can veg all day long and not hear "I feel ive wasted my entire day by laying in bef all day" because I dont feel that way at all. however the benefits of being without him DO NOT outweigh the negatives and I am forced to concede and tell him, I could not live without you. which is pitiful, but true.

Im reading The Queens Fool by the author of the Other Boleyn Girl and trying to finish it before he comes back. I doubt that will happen.


um Happy new year!

S

Paris is Burning

So I miss you all and decided to make a blog of my own to keep up with your lives and vice versa.

<3 S

Gavin is omg she doesnt demand long phone calls omg im so happy.


thats his fb status about me! he left today...20 days till hes back

MERRY XMAS BABY!

So me and gavin gave eachother presents!!

I gave him:
* A Silver Pocket Watch with the inscription: Always On My Mind , <3 S
* South Park Xmas DVD
* The Prince by Nicolo Machiaveli
*A box of Godiva Chocolates

he got me:
*Stanley kubrik Movie collection
*55$ Gift certifercate to LuluLemon
* The Legend of Zelda Game

HE LOVES ME SO MUCH AND I LOVE HIM JUST AS MUCH!!!

HATE MY LIFE

"Now I dont want to piss off gavin but I kinda want you"

from Dustin.


Gee willikers!

this stuff freaks me out! I dont like knowing this! WHY ME!

gavin told me that he needs me not just wants me but needs me...