city girl

so I sent Gavin all of my blog entries about us. he's excited. and Im feeling so nervous about all of this and worried like Im doing wayy to much but he doesnt mind in the least bit. i think he really likes being doted on. we started webcaming on skype but then his power went out.... so were trying again lol. im only able to stay from thursday to tuesday at his place.....on july 17th which makes me tripple sad because im only seeing him for a bit not to mention its two and a half weeks later... seeing him on webcam today made things feel so much more solid. there were actually moments that I instinctively reached out to hug him then remembered i couldnt. it hasnt even been a month and Im already having a difficult time with this. im a giddy loser of a school girl who is obsessed with her boyfriend...yeah.... his parents think im a nice "city girl" ....yeah...it feels so demeaning... makes me feel naive....oi!

when shit hits the fan...and the wall...and the ceiling...and the floor...

sooo after hanging out with Kayla I went to wired monk to see shiv and shayne. we later grabbed melissa and went to shaynes house to meet chris. me and siobhan tried to set chris and melissa up... meanwhile melissa and shayne were playing pool and I was sitting around watching while shiv played chris on air hockey. shiv blocked chris' shot and the puck flew past chris into shaynes toilet. chris tried to grab it and pushed the puck further back. sadly enough shaynes toilete was connected to a septic tank and while shayne shiv and chris tried to get the puck out water and shaynes shit started flying around the bathroom. Shayne and Chris settled on leaving it be...but as every tap went off the shit flew more and more. when shaynes parents came home Chris decided to tell shaynes dad. and well... shaynes dad thought it was funny as chris so delicately described how shit was "on the floor...on the walls...on the shower curtains...on the ceiling... on the toilette....on his hands....in shaynes hair....etc." Shaynes mom however went ballistic.... yeya

see the way he loves me.

on the 12th gavin told me he loved me :)

i had been stressed out dealing with gavins anxiety attacks and broken hearted amanda I. luckily thats over.

pregnancy scare number two.....a few days ago/

weve spent every night together since april 5th

last night was gavin and i's last night together. we had been having sex everyday since april 5th sometimes twice a day actually. and it wore him out and he was so stressed out physically and mentally (due to failing chem and Ding Calculus) he just couldnt do it, and instead of telling me this he told me that sex was meaning less and less. we ended up talking it outand were fine. we had sex before he left. i went to dinner with his dad and his dads colleague in richmond then i saw him off.
i love him and miss him so much already!

stay together for the kids

today me and gavin went to metrotown he bought me a necklace with the bat symbol and different chain for it and we went out to dinner and he bought me a build-a-bear named Hush. <3 every day he tells me that im the most beautiful girl and how much he cares about me. im going to miss him so much.

"if you are going to cry..."

so Gavin and I went shopping and while we were shopping I started thinking about how he was going to leave and it was making me sad. Gavin started getting worried and when we got to his room he tried to figure it out. he kept asking if I trusted him and I should trust him enough to tell him what was bothering me and if I was going to cry it was going to be on his shoulder not by myself in my room. eventually it got to the point where he knew that I was upset that he was leaving and he told me that he wanted to have a long distance relationship with me. yay.

the sweetest thing

I left him my keys and went out for a girls night. later on after playing mafia and visiting with him he had asked me if I had been to my room yet and i was like nooo not yet! so i eventually went to my bedroom to find that he made my bed for me<333

"you're right, it is the greatest feeling in the world to wake up and know that somebody is crazy about you"

"you're right, it is the greatest feeling in the world to wake up and know that somebody is crazy about you"

So last night I was talking to Gavin and I said "its the greatest feeling in the world to wake up knowing someone is crazy about you" thinking nothing of it, then tonight while we were kissing and hugging after he ditched me for the harmonica i gave him he looked at me and said ""you're right, it is the greatest feeling in the world to wake up and know that somebody is crazy about you"